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The Gazette DIM SCENE Tour '09 Final@Saitama Super Arena DVD

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 13:49:03 GMT

this the cover of the DVD jacket ^_^ i think Ruki drew this...

my ruki is so creative LOL so ganon inangken diba? haha anyway...

this is inside of the DVD if you open it like this...

behind it will be...

ja ja~n the CD cases are like this, if you take out the CD... mag-mumukha syang science book hahahaha may parts ng ear, lips at eye XD LOL

and then.... the label was just written by ruki~ love love LOL mamaya may body blow na ko haha~~

ayos diba!!!

asteeeg talaga ang Gazette

anyway~ tapos ko na panuorin at maganda naman sya pero mas gusto ko ung RCE e haha~ pero aus din to wala nga lang backstage footages T__T pero asteeg ung stage nila ang ganda tapos... anu pa ba???

may nakita akong babae na may dalang anak!!! hahaha naghe-head bang pa sya a haha pero ok ung crowd!!!! ung buong live masasabi nateng... it's really the Gazette ^_^

aun aun haha anyway... paglumaki na tayo, mag-meet up tayo, panuorin naten to lahat haha~ medyo me katagalan nga lang ung live na to pero gazette naman e!!! ~XD

i told my mom...

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:33:07 GMT

i told my mom that there's only two people in the world, aside from them, who can truly understand and get me.

she asked who and i said their names.

she asked if i am still in touch with them i said of course, that i'm even in the middle of a conversation via ym and fb with them.

she said that's good and i replied, yea, as if i would ever let them go~

gomen ne...zutto hanarenai

^_^

the road to nameless liberty

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:59:28 GMT

i'll record this now before i forget the feeling...

I saw the NLSG Tour ending just now and....wow. I just saw it because i got intrigued by the fucking description that they cried. I didn't cried though, the only video that made me cry was X-Japan's last concert.. anyway... it was full of fresh freedom and glory. One of those moments that you'd want to relive over and over again, doesn't matter if your the audience, the GazettE, the staff or even the equippments! just reminisce it over and over in your mind, in your heart and then you're there again. It was their night of triumph i suppose.

Anyway, i just feel a little... no... very much regretful that i used to snob them at first. Well, I hated them with passion then, for a reason i do not know.

What i always say is that, when you learn or start to love somone, love them as you've found them and don't bring out the past. Of course, that past is always something important as to what they are now but... i loved them now so, i shouldn't care what they were then but... i still feel stupid for not having to listen to them sooner, for limiting myself to the ones i already love...

i wish i have loved them way back so that i could have felt that glory with them, so that i could have felt those bad criticism about them and stuff... so... whatever they wouldn't know if i endured it with them or not anyway haha! talk about fast transition of thoughts LOL

whatever, with this feeling nothing will change anyway... Vidoll my favorite band, Alice nine my knights in shining armor(yea~ including hiroto LOL) and the GazettE.. always third... the GazettE but i love them no doubt about it haha~

--OK-- i suppose this is the end for the NLSG thoughts and stuff... am getting irritated i can't find the medicine!!! gr....

the road to nameless liberty

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:59:25 GMT

je deteste

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 10:02:41 GMT

i went to my old school today~

i went there to get this form for uste... anyway~

i went to the treasurer's office and paid for the fee...

it was all nostalgic: seeing those sights again, walking on the concrete floor of the old building...

so i headed to the main office right after. The lady asked me when did i graduated... i wouldn't remember if i hadn't read the request letter for the school. I answered 2007...

then she asked me who was the valedictorian when i graduated.... my answer was wrong and if she hadn't gave a clue i wouldn't remember -.-

then i went to get my yearbook at last.... the gentleman asked me what my section was... it took me five minutes to remember.. LOL

sooo... i detest my high school life that much that i can't remember anything...?

......

that's fascinating haha

i think i am enjoying college more than hs, because i am more talkative and i had come to open up and is trying (for some weird reason) to be friendlier... ughh... ~.~

esoteric cinderella♥

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 22:09:07 GMT

It's been a while, let's see if i can still do it.

One day, she decided to be who she wants to be for the rest of her life. She decided to bring joy and share her gift.
She would practice it everyday. Never-ending happiness while doing it, endlessly pursuing, infinitely fighting.
But one day, she heard someone telling a story about a girl who can do it better than her. Who had reached the end of the world,
and is ready to come back again. Her world stopped and everything became monochrome. And a sudden reality stabbed her.
She is sharing the same dream with everyone else. She stopped. She would live her daily life, thinking what would happen to her in the future.
Would she be one of the mothers who are bitterly nagging her child to fulfill her dream for her? Would she be able to reach at least half of her dream through other means? Would she be able to touch the face of the person who took her out of the maze without an end? Then she would cry bitterly. Angry at the whole world that doesn't seem to care and understand. Hearing kind words would calm her envy but at night, it would come back again, no matter how happy she was in the morning. Thinking of forgetting, she would be scared. Thinking of other path she can chose, it makes her mind blank. One night, she met someone. He was tired looking, but he was smiling none-the-less. He sat down on the swing next to where she was. He looked at her, looking at him. He gave a chuckle.

It starts! your one and only legend.

She looked up the sky as he did. A falling star came by and left beyond. She looked at him blankly. He bowed his head and smiled.

Someday, you'll be able to see it. The continuation of the dream you had, you'll be able to embrace it

The night gave a cold gentle wind. It caressed her cheek with a sudden care.

Ah! a new wind has come. It's time to search and walk again.

And she did. She started to sing again. She had been the side-character all this time. The shadow that helped everyone else see through their dreams. Now, she will be selfish and run the race without a care. What's wrong with wanting to shed tears in her happy times? This is her time. Her one and only legend.

my hapless unrequited ♥

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 17:20:16 GMT

and so, i find myself resorting to, saving pictures of you from the net. staring, until every hunger is filled and every thirst is quenched.

*sigh*

as i listen to our should be love song, as i reminisce our should be poem, as i look at the pictures of our should be memories, i found myself so pitiful that you'd be give me a body-blow if you knew me. (lol)

*sigh*

someday, i'll get over this, you. although the thought really scares me but, i will. i know i will. just like i got over sadako and her weird sound. Someday, i will be able to look at you with a strange distant feeling of nothingness and detachment.

but until that day, allow me to get obsessed and get swayed by your stories of depression, of losing, of winning, of hatred, and of your invincible power. allow me to dream of talking to you, of crying for you, of loving you♥ ( ewww cheesy =.= )

*sigh*

"what a fool, i don't know 'bout tomorrow and what it's like to be
i was fool, couldn't let myself to go, even though i feel...

the end."

hajimete no kiss

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 16:35:22 GMT

this is my first time to go and read a manga on my own choice...

because usually it's with another person's persuasion...

am not really fond of reading manga's it's because i am an utterly impatient person who gets sick of a story when the author wrote it in a way that everything gets build up waaaaaaaay too S-L-O-W

but anyway~ i just went to mangafox.com and searched... searched... searched...

and clicked on a title... 'Torokeru You na Kiss wo Kanadete'

turns out that this manga is a shoujo manga that is waaaay to C-H-E-E-S-Y

the thing is.... it's like reading my *ehem* daydreams O_o

WTF!? i wonder if i should finish reading it...

the main reason why i wanted to stop reading it [not because it's cheesy...] is because the protagonist is the girlfriend of a jrock band's vocalist!!! that doesn't happen in real life!!!! or does it? am not japan anyways~ (=o=;) *sigh* and miyavi even got married (sorry can't get over it)

and then i realized that... the leading ikemen's name is... Gaku... is that short for GAKUTO?
LOL just kidding wwww

ALICE NINE. photobook&65

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 15:43:36 GMT

i &65 this...

they are all looking good!

i &65 this...

thx ate tin&65

and because i like beat-up handsome guys...

i'll show this to you guys

oooohhh&65

&65so looking handsomely beaten-up&65

i &65 saga

WE ALL &65 ALICENINE.

thx shou-san for the wonderful concepts&65

i personally like nao's shots and tora looks hentai ^^;

shou's shots are fantasy and hiroto's are adamu WWWW

ok ok ~ bai bai

oh joy♥

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 20:32:46 GMT

~~MY HEAD IS ACHING WILDLY~~

why can't i drag myself to sleep early?

OMFG!!!

i really need to stop this hobby or else i'll be dead at school for always...

oh joy ♥ ♥ ♥

ok i'll go take a bath for a while...

OH SHIT!

i forgot my uniform still needs to be laundried ^^:

OH JOY ♥ ♥ ♥

hai hai... bai♥bai

i wonder why...

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 17:47:25 GMT

i kept writing blogs that can't be read haha anyway~

yesterday a dream came true...

ever since i was a kid, and ever since i got exposed to the church and it's activities...

i have hoped and wished to be a part of it...

i wanted to be a commentator at a mass or at least sing the doxology part at any programs..

and yesterday at our parent's orientation for the international tour...

i was given a chance to do it!

YATTA~

i am so happy that i had made one dream come true...

"one step at a time, one hope then another! who knows where this road may go?"
journey to the past; anastasia

ja~ mata atode ne~ jasmine you-san

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 14:18:44 GMT

Am not really a fan of Versailles...

In fact, I never really liked you (sorry) but i don't hate you ^^; just a so-so kind of feeling XD

and i only heard one of your band's masterpieces thru the undying persuasion of my older sister but... i admit, it's true, and am one of the worthless people who doesn't know how to appreciate until it's gone.

*sigh* i never thought i would cry for you...

the whole day yesterday, i was just thinking about you (even as i was taking my prelim exams) and the words 'jasmine you is dead...' kept on ringing on my empty head. i bought a PURPLE RIBBON for you... did you see?

i have not been a versailles fan... and i assure you that it will stay as is. because i don't want you to think that, your death had become a commercial thing for the band.

i appreciate your band, in fact, i really adore HIZAKI and his very beautiful face. I added you in ameba not so long ago and you accepted it about two or three days after. THANK YOU, i've never said it properly before.

You know what? I was thinking of checking your blog, just maybe! you'll have a new post and will tell us it's a joke... but no... your latest entry is still 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMIJO.' Then i clicked on your PETA and alot of people still give you PETA so I give one as I've always did before.

anyway~ while i was going home earlier this evening, i realized that.... you are with HIDE, KAMI, and JUI'S SISTER now... wherever that may be... so....

~~ROCK THE HEAVENS ABOVE US!~~

form a new band... maybe? just kidding XD

so...

you are there now...

with the other great people who has already crossed the great divide...

now, you made me think... why was i afraid to die again?

MY INTANGIBLE HUG... I WISH YOUR BAND MATES, FAMILY, FRIENDS AND FANS WOULD FEEL IT RIGHT NOW...

AND MY UNFATHOMABLE FEELINGS... I WISH YOU COULD UNDERSTAND IT...

ja, mata ne jasmine-san... i have to go and return the peta for today...

♥rabu rabu no eritan kore♥

join my jrock support group XD

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 22:25:09 GMT

here on multiply :D

it's here

sorry it looks just like my page XD haha next time i'll pimp it XD

cause am so sleepish right now, please join :D

let's PIMP our site!!

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 20:36:52 GMT

hm... am not really good in creating cool layouts, but let me try lol

if you have good css for our little group, then please send it to me ^^,

so i can immediately put it in our site hehehehe

feel free to post and talk here ^^,

white butterfly

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 21:31:04 GMT

just to share this story to everyone...

The vocalist of Vidoll had a younger sister.
But sadly, she went to heaven sooner than expected.
I think it was 4 years ago? i'm not sure about the number.
Anyway~ because of Jui's great love for his sister, he made a song for her.
the title of the song is 'Sister'.

I know you don't care but, this fact is essential to my story.

Ever since the day that i had discovered this fact about his life,
I started to talk to his sister in my prayers.
I would tell her things like...
'Hey, help me in my dream of meeting your brother.'
or
'How's your brother doing? I hope he's not sick.'
and even
'What's your name? Jui never revealed it.'

For some crazy reason, I just started to talk to her.
Feeling that she can hear me, and understand my language at that note.
What?! I AM CRAZY.

Anyway, lately i have not been doing it.
Because I had come to convince myself that it is pointless and well, yes, not a good practice.
I do not know her and she does not know me.
Her brother doesn't even know I exist... so what the?!

~~But yesterday, the most mysterious thing happened.~~

i was on my way to the university.
I went down from the first jeepney and stood next to the waiting shed to wait for the second,
which will take me in front of the university. I had, of course, my mp3 player on and the ear phones
are tightly attached to my ears. I had it on shuffle mode.
the current song ended and the next one was about to begin.

a white butterfly flew across and passed by me...

the next song played...

it was 'sister' by VIDOLL.

i welcome you home DIM

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 14:58:24 GMT

fuck it!

i almost cried when i held it on my hands.
actually, i cried.

it's like...
i have felt their sweat and blood,
i have witnessed their sleepless nights,
i have been born with their creative selves.
this is the real thing.
here by my side, inside my bag and my heart...
is one of the GazettE's masterpieces..

DIM.

SPOILER:
i admit, i was a little disappointed that there is no sign of the members in the CD jacket, in the booklet, and even in the lyrics sheet.
but that's the GazettE for you. I already saw the special movie with it, and you can't see their faces in the movie as well.
no funny uruha, no shy ruki, no bad-ass reita, no cute kai and no sexy aoi... XP
but you can see them really working hard and helping each other out.
it has 17 songs of which four (i think) are renditions of their old songs.

this is the CD jacket.
it's holographic and it's designed by RUKI himself.
it's cool, isn't it?
there's a man inside the ice-like cube.
i got absorbed by it.
i simply love RUKI with all that he is.

i hated the GazettE back then, it's because they are very famous and arrogant at some point.
they don't even go out in the ENCORE part of their LIVES if the audience is not shouting in ensemble O_o
and their official blogs are for FC members only.
but as i've said earlier, that's the GazettE for you.
and that's the part i like most about them, if you know what i mean.

ano sora he, be with you~

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 16:00:29 GMT

oh yea~
teh:
number six DVD
VANDALIZE album (limited)
DON'T U EVER STOP single
LIPS single
SUGIZO single
PSC DVD
ESOTERIC ROMANCE album (limited)

these are the lyrics sheets
sometimes, it just feels so good to see them,
stare at them and drool LOL
someday i'll be able to buy my own stuffs...
am not saying this because i don't have gratitude towards my older sister but...
i just think that it feels great to be able to buy stuffs that you love with your own
sweat-and-blood earned money XD

here is a better view of the lyrics sheet XDD
it's because the VANDALIZE album of alice nine has 2 booklets so the other one got folded LOL
the other booklet is a lyrics sheet and the other one just contains pictures X3 yey~
oh, by the way~ the PSC DVD has a patch lol and mini booklets of their artist XDDDD

it's because i've always wanted to blog this stuffs but i always forget about it X3
so now i made sure that i won't forget and i will post it haha
okay~ since i've done my part now~ i shall die for tonight!
good night~

it's been a long time...

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 16:40:25 GMT

look a wound... i got scratched on the door-lock while i was going out.
this pain, i kind of missed it somehow. i am no emo by all means but, this irritating pain is like a memory of a childhood for me.
i feel happy about getting this wound lol
and i was about to wish for more but... yea the scar wouldn't look nice XD

anyway~ i got so wet when i was going home early this afternoon.
although i have my kawaii umbrella, it doesn't help much because of the strong wind.
good thing i bought my handy-dandy bronze sandals so even if i had to walk in the flood, my shoes is safe and dry in my bag.
look~ the X-Japan ticket got wet damn it looks so good with my bag!! fuck~ lol

i was about to write something with my feelings yesterday but i could not continue it...
i wonder why? hmm...
but no AMEBA for me for the next few days...
maybe i'll write the reason why... but maybe next time lol

i need to put it in order first before i post it here LOL
okay~ my time has come to an end, my sanctuary is calling for me~
i must die for tomight so i can be reborn by tomorrow..

ugh, this feeling of hate and depression...
i hope it leaves me sooner than never

ameblo yet again XD

Mon, 25 May 2009 19:16:27 GMT

What happened was, me and my older sisters went to the mall yesterday. And Vidoll's SinAi song kept playing on my mind (especially the sweetest part). The next thing was, when we went home, i checked on my ameblo and saw that i received a peta (peta are like points so your blog pet would grow fast and beautiful and it also increases your blog's ranking, i think?? lol not yet sure XD.) So i clicked and checked who the h*ll would give me peta? I don't even have friends in ameblo, i don't even know how to use that site! LOL And then when the page loaded.... my eyes banged open! RAME-SAMA of VIDOLL gave me PETA !!!!!! then i was like.... O.o wow... XD

ahahaha it was after he gave me peta that i researched and used all of my brain cells trying to figure out how that peta works and what's it for. LOL my head ached like... XD I am so happy, my first PETA came from him <3

and so now, i go around every jrocker's ameblo to give peta's to them LOL. I got happy and excited about those Peta's and just did that in cloud 9. ahaha i gave peta to my two older sisters as well, whose purpose of creating an ameblo account is the same as mine's XD ahaha

DON'T YOU JUST LOVE JROCKERS?! DON'T YOU JUST LOVE VIDOLL?! BECAUSE I DO!!!!! THEY ARE SOOOOOOO KIND!!!!! XD

okay, i'm retiring for the... day XD ahaha am going to sleep now :D happily LOL

P.S. Shun-sama and Giru-sama gave me peta as well :D so happy! at least they know that I exist! XD

teh eff ameblo

Sun, 17 May 2009 07:28:11 GMT

after months of figuring hard how to create an ameblo account, i finally and successfully did! *clap clap clap* LOL

ameblo.jp is a blog website for japanese people XD {i feel that i am a japanese so what?! XD}

just made it so that i can send loving messages to my favorite bands and people in japan haha

i already sent a message to shou of alice nine and jui of vidoll LOL

i told them that, 'i like visiting your blog even though i can understand nothing at all...' XD haha

hopefully they will google translate what i've written or hopefully then would understand haha

anyway~ just shared this dizzy experience to all XD haha

ja ne~

new haircut...

Sun, 10 May 2009 05:56:16 GMT

because i got depressed, i went to Angles Salon at Blumentritt to have my hair cut.

it does not really matter if it suits me or not, just want to have it cut.

Kuya Haircutter: Te anong gupit?

Eri: eehhh... wala po akong alam eh XD

Kuya Haircutter: Tingin ka muna sa catalogue namen

Eri tingin sa catalogue ...

Kuya Haircutter: Meron na?

Eri: Kuya eto po ... (turo sa babaeng nka sideview) pero ung takip parain po ung batok

Kuya Haircutter gupit gupit

Kuya Haircutter: magpapa-rebond ka? kasi babalik to sa dati nyang texture

(anu daw? *nosebleed*)

Eri: gusto ko nga po e

Kuya Haircutter: Parebond ka na

Eri: Wala po akong pera ngayon e

Kuya Haircutter: Pag nagpa-rebond ka, dito ka na magparebond ah XD

(nag advertise pa XD)

Eri: *tango tango*

...hm so now i'm thinking of getting that rebond

that i've always wanted rather than

buying a guitar for my first pay...

hmmm................

what do you think?

anyways~

thanks to him it turned out right, i still feel depressed though

but at least i got a new cool haircut.

and i want to say sorry to Kuya Haircutter because

he had a hard time on getting my bangs done

because i was the one to cut before i went to them.

*owarimasu*

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have been promoting the philippine street team

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 01:18:03 GMT

all night hahaha

www.myspace.com/comiyavi_philippines

last post before i go to sleep XD

awwww itai ne!

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 08:22:07 GMT

when i woke up this morning my gums are aching! left mandible side XD

then i went down and took antibiotic

i haven't eaten anything and it's already 4:21 PM

what have i been doing? hehe it's a secret XD :D

yay~ hajimemashite

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 06:48:51 GMT

this is my first post since i made my livejournal XD

i joined livejournal so that i can view the magazine scans of VIDOLL ahahah XD

and so i could read the translated blogs of VIDOLL XD

thanks so much to the people who are doing the scans and translations, your effort are much appreciated by me :D hahahah

i love you :D